Trying to muster up the courage to face church today. Boo. It makes me so tired. I really wanted to be at Cornerstone today. Im really very sad about that.
Got back from Atlanta at 3am yesterday morning. We took a mini vacation last week and drove all around Florida and then up to Atlanta to do some shopping. Driving into the city was like going home to an empty house. Everything is familiar but there is no one there to welcome you home.
One thing that I did notice during the couple thousand miles we drove is the excruciating amount of "adult" stores everywhere. I dont know if I was just looking for them after finishing one of Craig Gross' books, or if I'd always known they were there and never really registered any of it. There must have been billboards advertising porn or strip clubs every 5 miles in bright yellow and red letters, screaming as you drive by. It was literally littering the highways. Its been said that as adults you have the option to choose to look at porn or not, but there is no not anymore. Its everywhere, and even if you dont look at it, you can read about it on signs, hear about it on radio advertisements. Something is wrong.
The sad thing is that its just people. People who are hurting and people who are lonely. I've never heard of anyone in real life being proud of porn addiction. I've never heard too many people talk about it at all, its still too shameful, embarassing.
I guess as a girl, it bothers me because so often in popular culture women are not valued by their hearts, or who they are. The same is true of men. The objectification (or neglection) of people bothers me. I wish it wasnt that way.
Well. Time to get ready for church.
