My favorite barista is back from college and working at the coffee shop again. Its funny how much you can miss people you don’t really know. Maybe I didn’t really miss him, just the best damn soy chai drinks ever. Maybe I missed him a little and those alot. I think I am in love with him a little bit. I am sure I am. But I am in love with lots of people a little bit. Sometimes it feels like my heart is never pure, that its fickle or fake. Its muddied with the faces of so many people. It makes things very confusing. It makes things very sad. I guess I am waiting for someone to fill up so much space in it that it makes everything else seem small and insignificant in comparison. Maybe that is unreasonable.
I have been reading SexGod again, and I really liked the point that Rob Bell makes in the end where he talks about how couples need to be careful of how much they share with other people, because once you do, you've lost it. It's not yours anymore. I thought that was interesting, something I've never really thought about, but it makes so much sense. I don't really know where I'm going with that, but I thought it was worth a mention.
I read Catcher in the Rye again today. Holden Caufield is absolutely fantastic. He's so honest. He doesn't make any sense, and he knows this. I like that.
I guess thats all I really have for today. I try writing these things a hundred times, and nothing ever comes out right, but I'm just going to deal with it this time.
Goodnight.
