Imagine that.
This blog welcomes me back like an old friend. I need one of those tonight.
I could go into the petty details of my life, but that doesn't really matter does it? Situations may change but the outcome stays the same.
Tonight, I can't seem to keep myself together. I've spent the better part of the last year a walking semblance of myself. I am but millions of tiny pieces all shattered and held together by some frail force of will I've managed to scrape together. At any moment I could break. It happens so suddenly, like with the changing of the wind. But I will continue to smile, and laugh at the right times. I will change the subject if it becomes to painful. I do it tactfully, so you might not even notice.
Most people don't notice. Russell Brand has a video where he talks about that--how we can all live our lives fairly anonymously. How as long as you act your part, no one ever really notices you. It's a thought that I find as comforting as I do disheartening.
I published "Somewhere in the Middle"on Amazon recently. It's a project that I've been working on when the mood arises for years. I haven't told anyone about publishing it. It's almost embarrassing in a way. It really shouldn't be, especially since some of the content can already be read here. It's an amalgam of thoughts and experiences and I think that's why I feel embarrassed by it. I want it to be better than it is.
I want to be better than I am.
Solid as a stone.
This blog welcomes me back like an old friend. I need one of those tonight.
I could go into the petty details of my life, but that doesn't really matter does it? Situations may change but the outcome stays the same.
Tonight, I can't seem to keep myself together. I've spent the better part of the last year a walking semblance of myself. I am but millions of tiny pieces all shattered and held together by some frail force of will I've managed to scrape together. At any moment I could break. It happens so suddenly, like with the changing of the wind. But I will continue to smile, and laugh at the right times. I will change the subject if it becomes to painful. I do it tactfully, so you might not even notice.
Most people don't notice. Russell Brand has a video where he talks about that--how we can all live our lives fairly anonymously. How as long as you act your part, no one ever really notices you. It's a thought that I find as comforting as I do disheartening.
I published "Somewhere in the Middle"on Amazon recently. It's a project that I've been working on when the mood arises for years. I haven't told anyone about publishing it. It's almost embarrassing in a way. It really shouldn't be, especially since some of the content can already be read here. It's an amalgam of thoughts and experiences and I think that's why I feel embarrassed by it. I want it to be better than it is.
I want to be better than I am.
Solid as a stone.
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